The Road to One-derland!!!

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Heading into the New Year

and quickly approaching my 1-year weight loss healthier lifestyle anniversary(gotta get to that 50lb mark by then!!!). I cannot help but think of new positive changes I want to incorporate in my life.  I know resolutions are cliche, but they do come with the best of intentions and CAN be fulfilled. (is that what we do with them? LOL).

I'm going to have some additional time to myself after the first of the year when my little guy starts a new school program.  I am hoping to use these hours to explore and experiment with new exercise options for myself.  Now that I've lost some weight, I'm hoping that the Couch to 5k program won't be so difficult for me.  Also, I would love to try a formal pilates class.  I've found a few of the workouts on Netflix streaming and would like to try it in a studio.  I'm also hoping to work as a substitute teacher a few days per month.  While this is not a physical exercise, it will be good for me mentally....and financially.   I'm looking forward to getting back in the classroom (but don't want to do it full time).

As I continue to work on me, I'm looking into other ways to help myself.  I'm toying with the idea of going back to school.  I need to meet with an adviser to see what's that will entail and how that will work for my family.

Very exciting things in the coming year.  I know I'll be adding to the list...where's that paper?

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Less than a week til Christmas

It's apparent that I will not be making my "50 lbs by Christmas" goal. I'm okay with that.  It seemed do-able for a while, then I had those setbacks starting around Halloween.  Now I will focus on getting those pounds off by my weight loss anniversary January 19.  This gives me nearly a month to lose 7ish pounds.

Thanks for the support and encouragement over the last year.  I'm looking forward to blogging more in the new year.  I've got some important topics that I want to write about and hope to start a discussion

Friday, December 9, 2011

Planning ahead, Choices, Temptation and the holidays!!!

So I was out yesterday running errands with my youngest.  He's a wild child so I was a bit anxious even before heading out.  A few weeks ago, while out on errands, he slashed my face.  I usually try not to bring him out with me for many errands, but I  had no choice yesterday.   I headed out to make several stops armed with only water.  What was I thinking?  I had a snack cup and water for O, but nothing for me to nibble on.  Talk about setting myself up for failure.  Why? Why did I not have something in the car for me?

The hub-bub of the holidays has really stressed me out.  Dashing around with the boy in-tow I kept thinking of all the quick-fix choices around me, Mc D's, Taco Bell, Chik-fil-a.  I could have easily drove through and got myself a little something.  I know I wouldn't have gone overboard there...but I would have gone home and still eaten more.  Why are those thoughts in my head?  It scares me that the little fast food voice was getting louder and louder in my ear.  I haven't been tempted by such places in seriously over a year.  Why now!!!

As we made our last stop, I went through scenarios in my head.  We could drive thru Taco Bell and the little guy could possibly tell his dad....I would be so embarrassed.   I know I would feel like a loser and failure for giving in, too.  Then thoughts turned to "what can I eat when I get home?'  I knew I had some homemade soup in the frig.  That needed to be eaten, it was healthy, and filling.  I immediately texted the hubs and had him start heating it.  If I knew it would be ready when I got home, that would really help keep the temptation demons at bay.

I know this all sounds very silly, but right now, this is a big victory for me.  I've been so weak when it comes to food these days.  I was able to talk myself down from the temptation ledge.  Thank GOD!!!  

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Still struggling...

Last night I went to bed early.  I figured I could use the sleep and it would keep me from snacking.  Yes, it worked....but I have so much to do, so now I'm stressing about holiday tasks.  I'm also disappointed that ....unless I get some Biggest Loser like numbers, I won't reach my 50lbs By Christmas goal.  I'm trying to revel in my success thus far, but it's hard.  I feel like I've lost motivation, inspiration, drive to keep going.

How are you all doing during this hectic holiday season?  Have you re-evaluated your goals during this time of year?

Friday, December 2, 2011

why am I so weak???

UGH, I hate when I give in to temptation.  Seriously!!! When I first started my weight loss journey in January, I had a rule, "No Eating Past 9pm".  I stuck to it like crazy.  Since I'm a night/evening exerciser, I've been allowing myself a snack since my diabetes diagnosis.  But man, tonight was just not good.

I had a great bike ride (stationary bike) and came downstairs to enjoy my quiet evening and do a few things.  I remembered there was a small piece of kerry gold aged cheddar in the frig.  I weighed it and counted out my wheat thin crisps.  PERFECT!!!  Then, I made up some muffins for my boys to enjoy tomorrow.  I swear the carbs in the crackers kicked off a huge craving.  I got out the crackers and finished off the bag.  It was mainly broken crackers and bits....but still, where is the control???  Then, I pull the muffins out of the oven.  48 perfect, lovely, steaming, mini-pumpkin muffins....  Before I knew it, I'd popped TWO in my mouth.  WHAT THE HECK???  I honestly didn't even remember the second one, I had to actually count the remaining muffins to know for sure.  How does this happen in the blink of an eye??

So now I'm disgusted with myself....and sad.  Why do I ruin a bad food/exercise day so late in the game???  This is exactly why I should be in bed at this hour.  DAMMIT!!!