So I was out yesterday running errands with my youngest. He's a wild child so I was a bit anxious even before heading out. A few weeks ago, while out on errands, he slashed my face. I usually try not to bring him out with me for many errands, but I had no choice yesterday. I headed out to make several stops armed with only water. What was I thinking? I had a snack cup and water for O, but nothing for me to nibble on. Talk about setting myself up for failure. Why? Why did I not have something in the car for me?
The hub-bub of the holidays has really stressed me out. Dashing around with the boy in-tow I kept thinking of all the quick-fix choices around me, Mc D's, Taco Bell, Chik-fil-a. I could have easily drove through and got myself a little something. I know I wouldn't have gone overboard there...but I would have gone home and still eaten more. Why are those thoughts in my head? It scares me that the little fast food voice was getting louder and louder in my ear. I haven't been tempted by such places in seriously over a year. Why now!!!
As we made our last stop, I went through scenarios in my head. We could drive thru Taco Bell and the little guy could possibly tell his dad....I would be so embarrassed. I know I would feel like a loser and failure for giving in, too. Then thoughts turned to "what can I eat when I get home?' I knew I had some homemade soup in the frig. That needed to be eaten, it was healthy, and filling. I immediately texted the hubs and had him start heating it. If I knew it would be ready when I got home, that would really help keep the temptation demons at bay.
I know this all sounds very silly, but right now, this is a big victory for me. I've been so weak when it comes to food these days. I was able to talk myself down from the temptation ledge. Thank GOD!!!