The Road to One-derland!!!

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

I'm now back on the Weight Watcher Wagon

I rejoined WW today.  UGh, I've been in such a bad place, I just had to do something to try and regain control.  It bums me out that I'm not able to do it on my own...for free.  But I'm needing help right now.  I fell off the weight loss/fitness wagon in the summer and never could get back on.  I tried to get the gained weight off...but it didn't come off and other pounds have crept back on.  So here I am....a Weight Watcher once again.

The last 6 months have been stressful and challenging.  I've not made a lot of time for myself....which is never a good thing.  Put that with a hubby gone most days of the week and dealing with some issues with my little was just easier for me to not do anything.  Well, anything except EAT!  and I did!

So, Tuesday a.m. is  my meeting day.  I think that time will be perfect and MY time.  My meeting looks like a nice group of people. Nearly all of the 2 dozen people were over 60.  I participated in the discussion a bit and they were very supportive.  The leader seemed wonderful, too.  We spoke at length to go over the new program and she really seemed like she wanted to see me succeed.  I opened up with her about my stress and even cried. Dammit I'm such a blubber-er . lol

Day 1 in the books....I tracked my food AND rode the bike for a bit.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

checking in from "out of the zone"

I'm so out of my program, in vacation much the opposite of "in the zone".  I need bringing back....back to healthful eating, back to intentional exercise every day, back to well just taking care of me and taking time for myself to do the RIGHT things for a healthier life.  I am the only one that can do this.  Need to tune the positive self-talk that carried me through the past year without fail.  I've lost it.....can't find it....NEED IT DESPERATELY!!!!

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Damn Blogger

So, I'm supposed to be converting my blog or it's going to be GONE...poof...deleted.  I really don't want to start over.  Waiting to hear back from the Google/Blogger gods to see how to do this.

Monday, April 16, 2012

20% Off!

No this isn't a sale..... it's how much weight I've lost.  I've take off 20% of my original weight!!! Woohoo!!!  I lost 2.3 this week and a total of 13.3 lbs in 3.5 weeks.

Next up, Onederland....which I haven't seen in decades.  The new ticker is counting down to that goal.  Hoping to get there by the 4th of July....can  it happen???

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Friggin Cake....grrr

Okay so I  had a house party last night....Demarle @ Home.  Love the products and of course we had food.  This incredible cake was made....yellow cake, my fave.  Then we topped it with a chocolate ganache.  Well my guests enjoyed it and there was some left.  Well....not anymore.  I ate it.  Now last night after the guests left, I thought "hmm, I should toss this...."  but I  hate to waste food.  No....apparently I would much rather WAIST it.

WTH am I doing?  It is scary to lose control like that.  I told myself, hey you're not going to gain back those 55 lbs you lost, don't worry about it....move on.  But, that's  not the best attitude.  Sweets are a big time Red Light food for me. "you can't eat just one" for sure

I got in over an hour of stat I'm feeling better about it, but still.  UGH!!!

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

2nd Paleo weigh-in

...and I'm down 3.8 !!!!  I normally intend to weigh in on Mondays, but with ham-fest on Sunday, I wanted to get the sodium out of my system.  I'm thrilled that my hard work and dedication is paying off.  1.4 lbs til my 20% goal....very do-able!  Oh and I've lost 11 lbs in 3 weeks.  This is just the jump (re) start I needed!

Phew, glad Easter has past!

I love EASTER, but let me tell you the yummy temptations that come with the holiday pain me.  I did super all last week...filling dozens of eggs without a nibble.  Then, when I came to doing the boys' baskets, I started in with the jelly beans.  WHY???  You know once you start you cannot stop. I finally told myself, hey, you have 24 hrs, enjoy the food, but don't go crazy.  So I did.  I had my first sweets, starches, sugar in over 2 weeks.  It all was delicious, but you know what... I felt like a slug.  We still have candy in the house, but I'm back in the zone. I portioned out the last of the chocolate pie for my boys....and didn't even lick the knife or grab a crumb of homemade cookie crust.  Yes, I am back!

I'm on a mission.  I am rarin' to go....on down the scale.  So excited about my next goals....reaching 20% of weight loss (a WW milestone that I love), getting to lower than I remember being recently, and then finally.....under 200.  I'm a planner....these mini-goals are my plan.  It's like I've got the GPS programmed for my weight loss journey.  I really want to be to ONEDERLAND by my birthday in Sept.  Buuuut, first things, first.  My new ticker is counting down to my next mini-goal....20% off. (no, not a sale, lmao)

Thursday, April 5, 2012

I just did something I was unable to do before....

and I'm stoked!!!  I registered as a bone marrow donor at .  I' have been wanting to do this for ages, and weight previously kept me from it.  About two years ago, I went to their site to register.  I went through their online screening and my friggin BMI was too high.  I was sad and mostly EMBARRASSED that I was unable to do this.  Here I am wanting to help someone and my fatness is keeping me from it.  This a.m. it dawned on me....hey maybe I can finally do it?!?!?!?!  So, I tried and I was accepted!  I'm thrilled!!!  Such a meaningful Non-Scale Victory (NSV)

Monday, April 2, 2012


I am so jazzed!!! Hopped on the scale and it showed me the love!!!!  I finally have reached my 50 pounds lost milestone!!!! Plus I've lost over 8 pounds in the last 1.5 weeks!!! Sayonara Vacation Weight Gain!!! Needless to say I've got my groove back.  While I don't think I could live on a full Paleo way of eating, it definitely is helping me get more processed foods and refined sugars out of my life and getting weight off me, too.  Now to make some new mini goals!

Sunday, April 1, 2012

First Paleo weigh in coming up

So my first week of Paleo eating is in the books.  It was a rough week.  Both myself and my youngest were sick.  He was home all week from school (except for Friday).  The nights were throwbacks to the newborn days.....either up with him, up with my cough, or up worried about him and wondering if he was going to wake me.  I was a zombie.  He's better.....I am still hacking and will head to the dr. if need-be now that he's back in school.  Otherwise it was a great in lots of exercise (even with the illness).  I didn't attempt the 30-day shred, but I continued to ride the bike and did a 7 day challenge on Just Dance 3 which was lots of fun.  I bumped up my challenge for this week to something requiring a more lengthy workout and will continue to bike as well.

so the tale of the scale awaits in the a.m. I'm curious and excited!

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Day 2 of paleo

The first day went fine....even though I'm sick, my youngest is sick, we got little sleep, and he stayed home from school.  Today, well I'm dragging.  I  am tired, hungry for some easy, convenient foods that would make me feel better....maybe just mentally, but hey that's a start.

hoping to get my coughing, sputtering kid back to school tomorrow.

Monday, March 26, 2012

New Start Monday!!!

Okay, so I've decided to try something new...and I'm starting today.  A friend was telling me about Paleo/whole30 eating + clean eating. eat meats, veggies, seeds/ dairy, no grains, no legumes (sayonara PB), no sugars, no processed junk AT ALL. There are a few different opinions on fruits.  I don't think I can give that up altogether.  I will look for choices that fall lower on the glycemic index.   I've been researching and reading....and decided "what the heck, 30 days....sure I can do anything for 30 days" .  So today's the day.

I've gotten back on my exercise habit and it feels GREAT!  I will be restarting the 30-day SHRED and plan on continuing with the stationary bike.  That combo did not fail me in the past.

Oh and I'm so excited.... S got me my new blender from Costco today.  They had the Ninja in their coupon book.  I haven't seen it yet, but just saw the box. It's a doozey. Soooo, I'm hoping to experiment with some smoothies, soups and stuff.  Woohoo!!!

And for the record, I did not pay for anything to do this.  I know the site I listed wants to charge for downloads, ebooks, etc.  I just used it for info and did further research for me.  Honestly I refuse to pay for something when I can find the information for myself.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Struggling but regaining focus

I've really been struggling lately.  I've personally bee spread too being pulled in different directions.  I went much of last week without exercising.  That physically made me feel like crap and mentally made me feel guilty.  I had a busy week with lots of appts and running around and also dental problems.  Those issues kept me from eating right and timely.  It's easy, when stressed, to go for the easy fixes.....I need to chalk it up to a bad week and move on.  Life is some-what back to normal.  I did get in 35 min of exercise yesterday and plan to continue today.  I need to get back to journalling my food ASAP.  I feel so out of control when I don't.

I logged into my fitness pal to read the message boards.  Success stories are very inspiring to me.  I immediately saw one of my mfp "friends" posts about her 1 year anniversary...she's lost over 100 lbs in one year. WOW!!! she's dedicated to exercising....trying lots of new things....and allowing herself to be real with food (not depriving herself).

Hope you all are doing well.....we can do this!!!

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Back from vacay and busy!!

Okay just checking in.  We've been back for nearly two weeks from our fab vacation.  We all had a wonderful time.  I walked a lot and worked out at the fitness facility....once. The food was wonderful, the cocktails were delish.  Now I'm back home busy with spring obligations, dealing with kid appts, kid ailments.  I've got to make time for me, but it's hard especially when I'm tired.

I shared pictures from our trip on Facebook.  So many comments about my weight loss and how great I looked.  It felt good to have my dear friends take note of my hard work.  Yaaaay Me!

Still chugging towards that damn 50 lb loss......soon!

Monday, February 6, 2012

Counting down...

Next week at this time we will be setting sale on a fab family vacation.... The Disney Cruise to the Mexican Riviera.  Soooo can't wait for some nice R&R with the hubs and to enjoy some outings with the boys.  I've been dedicated to working out daily and plan on being just as active while we are on vacation.  I've been looking at the fitness center on the ship.  LOVELY!!!  And, with the boys participating in the children's programming, the hubs and I can work out at the same time.  No strategic planning needed to ensure kid-coverage.  Yahoo!!!

I'm hopeful that by being dedicated to exercise, that I won't come home with a huge gain. We shall see.  Cruise food is so delish.  And let's not forget the cocktails.  YUMMMMM

Friday, January 27, 2012

So Flippin' Close

.2  !!!!   Of what you ask?   I am .2 away from 50 lbs.  ARGH!!!!  Seriously!?!?!?!  Sooooo, one more week go. Hopefully this will take me into a new 10's digit on the scale, too.  It's been a good week...still working out hard with a mix of circuit training via the 30 day shred (been doing level 2 this week) and cardio thanks to our trusty stationary bike.  I've had a few days of eating a lil more generous portions, but I think it all has worked itself out with my daily exercise.  I surely don't do that often.  Well, only in daydreams.

Hope everyone has a grand weekend.

Monday, January 23, 2012

Size 16

Yes I did.... I wore a size 16 in public this weekend.  oh yeah baby!  I was so jazzed to wear them, that I didn't even care that I didn't have the right shoes to wear them with.  Thankfully I was at a house party and kicked my shoes off.  :)  These pants I last wore 5 years ago.....when I was 15 lbs lighter.  Seriously, it is amazing how exercise can change one's body.  I'm so glad I tried on my "skinny" clothes and found that I was close or ready to wearing most of it.  Yaaaay me!!!
And, if you're keeping score at home.... last year at this time I was in a 22.  So my advice...if you're working hard and the scale is not budging much...try on some of your old "skinny" clothes for some motivation.  You just may be closer to wearing them than you expected.

Friday, January 20, 2012

50 Pounds....I see you and I'm coming to get you....

1.6 pounds away from the huge milestone of losing 50 pound.  FIFTY Pounds!!! I am so jazzed, pumped and motivated.  I feel it happening NEXT week.  After some set backs or plateaus, or blahsville feelings in the fall, I'm finally gonna do it.

I've never lost 50 lbs before.  I've never stayed with a program or healthy mindset for this long before.  Can you tell I'm excited?

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Stress and emotional eating

So something came up today that was a bit unsettling for me.  I don't want to get into specifics here, but there is no resolution for a few weeks.  My initial feels were of being kicked in the gut.  I wanted to just curl up and sleep the day away....after bawling my eyes out, that would just feel better and take it away, right?  After those feelings past, I had images of a gorge-fest....all you can eat pizza for lunch at a neighborhood pizza place was calling my name.  Or, perhaps, sneaking out to grab a few sushi rolls....usually with some nice, crunchy tempura shrimp running down the middle.  I didn't though. I continued on with my planned lunch....spicy seafood soup.  It was tasty, but I still feel the painful urge to drown my troubles in some cheesy, starchy goodness.

one moment and meal at a time....

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

46.6 !!!!

Ok friends, it has been a year.  I'm down 46.6 !!!!  Woohooo!  I never really knew what to expect when I set out on this journey, but I'll definitely take being down 46.6 lbs!  Nearly  50 lbs that I vow to NEVER see again.  I'm eating better , living a more active lifestyle filled with intentional exercise, drinking water constantly.  I feel GOOOOOOOOOD!!!

In this next year, I'd like to accomplish the same feat.  I'd like to take off an add'l 46 pounds. Hell, let's round it up to 50!  I know that sounds like a lot, but I have a lot to lose.  So, you heard it here first.  Next year at this time,  want to be down a total of 96lbs.  Watch me do it!!!

A Shred update

So Jillians's 30 day shred is going to be more like 45 for me.  I took an extra couple of days on Level 1, then didn't do it for 4 days.  I attempted Level 2 tonight ...yes, I said ATTEMPTED.  I think Jillian was trying to kill me.  It's much more challenging for me than Level 2. Now to put a positive spin on things, I guess that will make it easier to see my growth, right?  LOL  Lots more use of balance, planking, etc.  I don't think my poor wrists can handle this.  I will trudge forward though.  I will continue to do this program til we set sail next month at this time.  Any other shredders out there? Did you experience wrist pain and weakness?  What's a girl to do????  It's not from using the weights, but from holding up this BOD of mine.  Oh boy!!!

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

A glimpse of the old me (not pretty)

I bit of my former self popped out this weekend and it was scary.  I was out of town sans kids for the first time in ages.  I was road tripping home and realized 1) I hadn't really had breakfast and 2) I had forgotten to re-fill my water bottle.  I stopped and picked up some bottled water....and a tube of Pringles.  Why oh why did I friggin buy them?  And you know, while you're driving you're mindlessly  munching.  Before I knew it, the tube was EMPTY.  Yep, I'd eaten over 700 calories of nothing food....salty, fake potatoes.  How could I let myself get so out o control like that?   It was scary to see how quickly I could polish off those chips. I was so disappointed in myself.  :(

Now I'm miss positive here are some good points about this mini-binge.  I counted it on my food diary, I didn't let it completely derail my day, I got an hour's worth of cardio in later in the day, and now I'm blogging about my imperfection.  There are ups and downs in life.  I don't think it's healthy to always portray a rosey picture of perfection. So, here you have it.....I over ate, it made me feel like crap (physically and emotionally).  I know it was a result of my not feeding my body properly to start my day.  Lesson Learned!!!

Thursday, January 12, 2012

First week "Flying"

Ok, so this is my first week "flying" with The Flylady, and it's going GREAT!   I am definitely taking baby steps as I work through this weeks zone (the kitchen) and work on the daily routines for me and the house.  I have to say it has added a certain level of calmness to the household.  The downstairs common areas where we spend most of our time look fab.  and having things planned out the night before makes things for this non-morning person go so much more smoothly.  I've kind of adjusted the daily schedule to fit my/our needs (doing them on different days, but making sure they still get done).  

I'm excited and cannot wait to do more.  I'm really trying to take advantage of my extra time without children at home to make our home more comfortable and homey.  I think it's working.  The hubs has even commented....numerous times daily about how great things look.  Yaaaay!  Next up, looking for some good crockpot recipes so I can cut back on meal prep time.  Please share if you have any.

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Good Bye Holiday Season!!!

you will be missed, but not all the tempting holiday treats. I'm pleased to say I've lost 2 lbs since Thanksgiving. Phew! Thankful, grateful,pleased, etc. I'm a big time sweet maker. I especially love making treats for my friends and family at the holidays. I enjoyed my fair share so no deprivation for Bex. :) Now I'm committed (and possibly a bit obsessed)to work towards my goals for 2012.

Friday, January 6, 2012

Shredding....oh boy!

So I've been doing the 30 Day Shred all week. OMG!!!  Can I say I HATE jumping jacks?  Never thought I'd ever have a preference for push ups or ab work. I think I mentioned that I'd attempted this workout previously, but needed a new bra.  I got this super tight, muli-hooked bra that was perfect.  Well now, after losing 45 lbs, it appears to be too loose now.  Darn it!   I was wanting to add a new bra at some point, but don't like that I now HAVE to.  UGH....they are like $55 !!!

Anyway, back to the program.  It's 3 levels, so you do each level appx 10 days.  I'm thinking I'll do each 12 or 13 days.  Right now being half way through the first level, I really don't think I'll be ready to move to #2, but who knows.  I know it can't hurt me doing it longer, right? LOL

While I do The Shred daily (appx 25 minutes of circuit training), I continue to also ride the stationary bike.  I just can't give up that baby.  I'm riding 45-60/day and it's gotten to be like my happy place.  I know that sounds weird, right?  I'm in the crazy zone now....really motivated, pushing myself....scratching to my next short-term goal.  I see 50lbs down in my grasp!!!  My 1 year anniversary is less than 2 weeks away.  Will it happen????

Monday, January 2, 2012

Resolutions, Goals, Life Changes (whatever you call them)

Welp, it's a new year....and that brings about the desire in many people to make changes in their lives.  Resolutions get a bad rap, but in all honesty, they are just goals we want to focus on, and goals ARE good, right?  Last year, something finally hit and my resolutions "stuck".  I made changes in my lifestyle that helped me lose over 14% of my body weight.  I'm thrilled with the progress I've made, but have so much more to do.  There were times my motivation waned.....well now it's back and I'm driven towards new goals.

So what's in store for this year:

  1. complete the 30 Day Shred workout dvd; I took a before pic and measurements and completed day 1; can't wait to see transpires over the next month
  2. do the Couch to 5k program.  I attempted this a few years ago and honestly I think all the additional weight made it super painful; I'm also hopeful that the addition of my iphone and the C25K app that's available will help me.  My ultimate goal is to participate in the Susan G Komen Race for a Cure in SF in September.    
  3. check out pilates and yoga classes in a local studio.  I cannot afford to take classes, but would love to see what it's like,
  4. work on the mental me.  I will be blogging about this in more detail, but I'm wanting to delve more into food addictions and the WHYS of my overeating.  I've bought some books and workbooks and will dedicate time to this facet of my life change.  
  5. Eat a cleaner diet.  I'm happy to say we've finally kicked SPLENDA to the curb.  Also,  I love researching recipes and will look for new, healthy ones to share with my family on a regular basis. 
  6. take better care of the home.  Living in disorganized chaos is stressful.  I really think it will make for a happier home and need to establish a routine that works for me and my busy lifestyle.  Flylady is a great resource for this.  It's been ages since I've followed her program, but we NEED it desperately and know it works.  
  7. I'm looking forward to participating in challenges, reading up on my favorite blogs and message boards, and keeping active over the next year.
How 'bout you?  What are your plans?